The afternoon sun filtered past my blanket
I rolled over to see if I was still alone
My sweet little kitten turned back toward me
expecting me to shower her with my affection

I had been holding it all aside for another day
As if I had been captured and put in stasis
Another day always came to claim this freedom
Holding me back from getting where I should

All these bad words were thrown around
Blame was mislaid on people and things
Here's the thing about life, it happens
Since we didn't understand, we broke apart

In airing out the futon I caught the sunset
ablaze in orange, pink, blue and purple
A voice from the sky told me to forget
the darkness I fell into which held me tight

I was grateful for the company while staring
into everything that ever mattered to me
The green green grass, the glassy lake
even the noisy geese brought me peace

After lungs full of fresh spring air
Always quicker than we expect
The sun was long gone and I had chores to do
I hid away, working, clanging, building

by the end of it I was dirty, stinky, and sore
Also, proud for a job completed well done
I emerged with my good nature overflowing
My happiness was returned with his groaning

I got down on myself for not doing good enough
Everyone seems to respond to me this way
Like I'm some annoying burden to look at
I thought I had no choice but to turn away

Someone told me It's better to be hard
That life here can't be sweet or kind
In my naiveté I believed that to be true
and changed myself not quite right

I never gave myself up, I was always fighting
If I was born pure, how can that be wrong
Does being gentle mean I don't belong here?
Is there something about me that's not o.k.?

It was me against me, Me against you
Me against the world, everyone was winning
I had expected a light to show me right
But in the darkness I found myself in flight

Love is something carried in your heart
and worn like a crown on your head
Courage is draped across the shoulders
to protect that which means the very most
Hope is held in your able hands
an orb of glowing light to scare away fear

If anyone told me that, I can't remember who
it's good advice so i'll pass it on to you

Dandelion fuzz floats across my desk
while I am working all of this out
I can't help but smile at the new day
when it keeps on smiling at me

I just sat down from watching the sunrise
the sky all water colored in pink and blue
the burning orange and yellow crept up
I was completely restored by morning air

I had no idea when it would come
but I always kept the hope alive
that one morning I would be back to normal
A greeting sprang forth like my first words

I was ecstatic I could speak aloud, to be heard
to be acknowledged, to be alive again
Or is it for the first time? Oh I can't worry
When there is a world right there calling me out

I knew it would come in it's own time
but being surrounded by people on the clock
got me all confused about where I needed to be
It's not their fault, none of us knew a thing

Times get hard, the opportunity to overcome
should drive us all forward into our bravery
to be patient and strong for one another
We will all be ready sooner or later

For now lets just enjoy one another's company
I want to see everyone's headgear
Glittering, shining in the bright sunny weather
So when I reach out my hand, you wont smack it down

So show me your smile, reach deep inside
pull out some of that joy you've been holding aside
Share it with us so we can take out our own
and we'll have enough to pass it all around

I'll spend my love like money on everything I see
thanking you all for everything you've done for me
since it was your doing that got me out alive
Now I am strong enough to walk out into today