reaching, wanting, needing
hurt myself leaving
grasping, clawing, tearing
kill myself being

falling, flailing, crashing
it collapses with crushing weight
begging, wining, crying
mimicking the entity i hate

floating, moaning, going
return from the dead
showing, flowing, blowing
back inside my head

faking, making, playing
hearts, diamonds, clubs and spades
taking, breaking, shaking
will no longer tolerate mind games

holding, smoldering
one more time
clanking, breaking
devoid of shine

booming, believing, meeting
another shot to the head
shooing, screaming, breathing
why aren't you dead?

going cold
brain is mold
this is the end
no no never again